You tell me that you’re hungry for me. Do you feel what I feel? Do you experience the gnawing deep in your core? Does it hurt? Does it make you groan with need? Will you do anything, anything to fill the void?
I tell you that I ache for you. Do you truly understand what I mean? My cunt literally aches, and no amount of fucking myself with my fingers or toys is going to relieve that painful throbbing. The only penetration I want is you in me. Now.
Do you really get what your words do to me? I don’t think you possibly can. It hurts. It’s like… someone is stretching my cunt wide open, just to remind me how empty of you it is. God, how empty. And there’s not a damned thing that will fill it but your cock. Nothing gives me release but your fucking.
So when you tell me of your hunger, and I respond in kind, smile if you like. Feel proud of yourself. Let me stroke your ego for you, if I can’t be stroking your cock. Ultimately, I’d rather crave you, suffer your absence, pine for you endlessly, than never know this heavenly torture.
Wow. Great explanation. My bf keeps asking me, when he gets me going, if I’m wet. I always tell him, “no, I’m _achey_.” I feel the ache much more than any sensation–except maybe the heat.
It’s unbelievable when you find someone who generates that amount of craving and hunger.
By: seraglioletters on July 18, 2008
at 10:02 pm
For me it’s more like a feeling of just wanting to pound and pound and pound and scream and groan and sweat and clench and just… Explode.
Yeah… something like that
By: SP on July 19, 2008
at 5:54 am
You paint quite a picture with words, Marianne. Love it!
By: swingerwife on July 19, 2008
at 7:41 am
This is a beautiful explanation of something I too feel
By: Isobelle on July 19, 2008
at 2:10 pm
I love that line “It’s like… someone is stretching my cunt wide open, just to remind me how empty of you it is.”
Indeed.
A. is leaving on Tuesday and I have at least three months of an empty cunt to look forward. Sigh…
By: Natty on July 19, 2008
at 8:45 pm
sometimes this kind of passion is better not be realized…its hard for the reality to beat fantasy….
By: theissuedwife on July 20, 2008
at 12:22 am
stroke me indeed. my ego and all that is attached to it. merci beaucoup for that. achingly lovely post.
By: max on July 20, 2008
at 9:57 am
You described what I also feel for someone in my life. You know the one. I know reality will live up to your expectations just not often enough. Great post and great writing as usual.
By: madam butterfly on July 20, 2008
at 12:40 pm
Sera – For me, the ache is most intense when the craving is the most intense, too. Pleasure / pain… gotta love it.
SP — That kind of explosion sounds just wonderful.
Swingerwife — Thanks, hon!
Isobelle — I love it when people can identify with what I describe. Thanks!
Natty — The cock-absense can be very hard to take. I’m sorry about A. leaving for so long.
Issuedwife — You make a very good point. But when the reality does live up the fantasy — heaven.
max — Let the stroking commence.
Madam B — I do know who you mean. Thank you for your kind words.
By: Marianne on July 21, 2008
at 2:14 pm
Fuck me. This post and “suffering for my art” both just make me want to cry with understanding and sympathy. I just so so so need to be fucked.
XX
By: A. Secret on July 23, 2008
at 7:00 pm
Ms. Secret — Oh, goodness. Someone is going to be very lucky.
Thanks for being so sweet. x
By: Marianne on July 23, 2008
at 9:40 pm
Thank you for putting into words exactly how I feel. The whole thing is fantastic. This part seemed to come from my soul:
I tell you that I ache for you. Do you truly understand what I mean? My cunt literally aches, and no amount of fucking myself with my fingers or toys is going to relieve that painful throbbing. The only penetration I want is you in me. Now.
By: Kyra on July 27, 2008
at 11:18 pm
This is absolutely wonderful. I can relate to that aching that you mention.
By: Ellie on July 28, 2008
at 8:38 am
Kyra — I’m glad you liked it. Sometimes the ache is almost constant.
Ellie — Another one on board.
By: Marianne on July 28, 2008
at 2:10 pm